Faith

One of my biggest struggles as a parent is trying to find time to read the word and draw closer to God. My best friend Amy always tells me not to be so hard on myself. I desire to have a deep relationship with the Lord. The hard part is balancing my time with all that I do. I am busy raising Allison, cooking, cleaning, laundry, spending time with my husband and friends and family. I do try to make time for the Lord but in today's society I have seen how we can fill our schedules from the time we get up to the time we go to bed. My goal this past year is to make time for the Lord even if its just reading one sentence in the Bible. My friend Amy reminds me as a mother life becomes very demanding and God understands that. She says it is OK to be where I am at and in time I will be able to spend more time with the Lord. Because I am a people pleaser I want to please God a lot more when I don't spend a lot of time with HIM I get very hard on myself. This is all new to me so I pray I will have faith and believe that the Lord does understand me.

I recently just finish a study and my leader gave me a little devotional book. What I do right now is sit with Allison in her room and read it out loud while she playes. I love it because one I am getting some encouragement from the Lord and Allison is also hearing and seeing me read the word. As I write today I'm writing because one of the questions stumped me. It Asked, "Am I willing to ask God to become my full partner in my life?" WOW! Full partner, what does that mean? I don't feel like I have allowed HIM to be my full partner. What I do know is that I pray every day to him and try my hardest to depend on HIM. I fall short a lot of the times but I am so grateful for a God who has given me Grace. I came upon a verse that confirmed my faith in HIM, Heb 11:6 It is impossible to please God apart from Faith. And WHY? Because anyone who wants to approach God must believe both that he exists and that he cares enough to respond to those who seek him." One thing I know is that I will always seek God even when I lack faith. I also know that I can not breathe without HIM in my life.

My prayer today:

Dear Lord, help me to be a woman of Faith. Help me to remember that you are always near and that You can overcome any challenge. With Your love and Your power, Lord, I can live courageously and faithfully today and every day. AMEN.